So today, I'm just gonna write about stuff I'd rather be doing that writing about stuff. Does that make sense? No. Will it keep me sane? Yes.
Playing Video Games
When I couldn't afford the rope to wrangle in some 'friends' however, I've been dipping my toe back into No Mans Sky. Now, I know what you're thinking; Isn't that game an awful boring mess guilty of false advertising? Yes, to the advertising point maybe, but the game has certainly improved since launch. Not only can you explore the 18 quintillion planets as before, but now there's better combat, base building, social multiplayer spaces, an actual story with characters, a graphics boost and a whole other host of general fixes. No longer just an interesting experience, NMS feels like an actual game. I really want to dive headfirst into a space faring adventure rather than typing incessantly about it, but here we are, not doing that.
Between these, the Crash Bandicoot remakes I haven't finished and the constant XP weekends in TitanFall 2 I keep missing, it's fair to say I do wish I was sitting in my pants with a headset on, shooting the shit whilst shooting shit. Or being an orange marsupial. I have strange desires.
Having A Social Life
And that's just a shitty way to think about life, really; in terms of how it can be transformed and marketed into a piece of media. I can't watch a movie that someone else isn't going to watch because we can't make a podcast out of that. I can't write about an old TV series or movie because Twitter moves too quickly and only cares about the latest Game Of Thrones spoilers. And I sure as hell can't go outside and just do something innocuous like visit a park or whatever because I'm not near a screen to keep up on the latest micro-drama that everyone cares about. Sometimes it makes you just want to throw your phone into the nearest, deepest lake and fuck off all engagement with the digital masses. Still, here we are. Having fun so far?
Planning My Holiday (Without Fear of Death)
And I hate to make such a light of the troubles of the world, but... come on, fucking look at the world right now. If we don't all laugh once in a while, we're gonna spend the next decade either shouting or crying. And that shit just isn't fun. Besides, it's way easier to mass-market and packages things people should be angry about than just 'hey guise im going to a nice place to have fun k thx'. Fuck, this planet sucks.
Being A Fat Piece of Shit
Thing is, coming from a poor dietary background as mine, you kind of have a reliance on associating food with happiness. As soon the immediate weight loss progress dried up, it was hard to distinguish a good week from a bad week in my quest to be less like Jabba the Hutt. I miss good food, Badly. And I don't mean good food in the literal sense, I mean I miss horribly unhealthy food packed with enough chemicals to make a Lidl-brand makeup blush. Perhaps there's a deeper, more chemically based reasoning for my intense drop in enthusiasm, but I'll be willing to be that it's less 'who I am as a person' and more 'a total lack of sweeteners giving me that pep'.
Yes, I am blaming this shit on food. Because why take responsibility for the shell of a person I am myself?
Writing Something I Care About
We started two great new podcasts this month, Pitch Intense and 8BitterSweet (coming later this week) from a desire to something different and something we cared about. Pitch Intense opened with a topic that myself and Darren care deeply about and 8BitterSweet will open with one of the most heated debates I think we've ever platformed on this site. THAT is what is exciting to me. A talking point, a spark of enthusiasm, the cathartic feeling of releasing a long-stewed idea, SUBSTANCE. INTRIGUE. FUN.
All things that I am just not feeling during this 30 Days. And I don't want to shit over anyone's excellent work this month, we've shown that even at our worst, as a team, we're often better than some peoples best. I'm just not happy giving you my worst.
But hey, I guess I'll see you tomorrow, with more content. But this time, with some enthusiasm.